Horrific Nightmare

I haven't had a nightmare in a very long time. In fact, I don't remember the last time I had a nightmare. But I had one this morning. And it was the scariest one I've ever had.

This morning I woke up at around 10:30am, but I was still tired so I went back to sleep. I kept dozing off but sort of waking up again. You ever feel like you were half-dreaming and half-awake, and you couldn't tell if you were conscious or not? Well that's what it was like. I was dreaming, but then I was dreaming about dreaming. So I thought I was awake but I was still dreaming. It was really weird.

Anyways, in my dream....I'm in my bed...and I'm trying to fall asleep (in my dream). Okay this is going to get confusing since we have a dream within a dream. So to keep this simple, everything I talk about after is IN MY DREAM

I'm in my bed. I'm trying to fall asleep again. I sort of half-realize that I may be dreaming. But am I dreaming now? I'm not really sure. But I don't really think about it. I'm now having a lucid dream...(lucid because I realize that I am dreaming). Everything is dark. It's pitch black. A dark figure approaches me. The dark figure grabs me by the wrists but it's just my friend so I'm not scared. I sort-of wake up again. Not really...I'm still half-dreaming. But I suddenly have the urge to do something....bad. Well....not bad but....shameful....sinful. Suddenly, my legs start to rise up by themselves. It rises up towards the ceiling, so far that almost my back is off the bed. I guessed that maybe something is punishing me because I want to do something sinful. I shrug it off and go back into my dream. It's pitch black. I visualize and try to force myself what to dream about. Suddenly my legs rise up again. I start to get a little worried. This isn't supposed to be normal right? I wasn't sure. But I knew it was some sort of sign of me being punished. I ignore it and go back into my dream. I try to force myself what to dream about....it's bad....but I want to do it....suddenly.....everything goes WHITE....there are RED SYMBOLS flashing before me...it's WHITE with RED SYMBOLS....I think it was a RED distorted FACE surrounded by red symbols...I wasn't sure...it was hard to make out....LOUD evil, organ, DEVILISH MUSIC plays in the background...and a male VOICE in my head is saying "SHOULDN'T HAVE BEEN BORN LIKE THAT!"

And then I wake up with a start...making unintelligible crys in fear. I stayed in my bed for about 10 minutes without moving a muscle, and I was so afraid of falling back to sleep for fear of encountering that horrific voice with the red symbols in a place that was all white. I don't know what it means. I felt like I was going crazy. I'm so scared right now just thinking about it. I've never been so scared from a nightmare like that before.

WHAT I SAW

This is what I saw...it also moved. Like an animation. The lines, and symbols moved slowly around it. Like a whirlpool...and the face was like a blackhole. It's not an accurate drawing of it, but it's close.


I'm so jumpy and freaked out right now. My cell phone rang twice this morning and I jumped both times. That nightmare really freaked me out. I can't explain it. I know it was just a nightmare, but I can't help but feel....I don't know....it really affected me. Explaining it in words make it sound like it was nothing....just a voice and some symbols....whatever right? But the experience.....what I experienced.....was HORRIFIC. I CAN'T explain it. I don't know why....I think I'm going crazy.